Mrs..CInderella-Im Freaking Hate You...

so here i am,
.....
i hate time flies like an arrow
i hvn't started to study and it tel the semester is going to end
i gained/learnt just a few things
oh, gained weight perhaps i do

thingss happened
bad one. good one. happy one. sad two
all these caught me off guard
was so unaware and unprepared
made so many mistakess. idiot me nvr tried to correct.

sorry to my friends if i have make a mistakes.

few times i wake at midnight

asked my self: what r u doing?
then i could heard : u r wasting yr life.
fml to the max i admit i do

wasting all the times messing with all those stupid stuff.

four month left.: I need GPS to show me direction.

If I lost my way
Would you stand with me
Would you love me still
And care for what I need
If I lost my way

Mrs. Cinderella i just found You back,

i just realise in few days..

u r tottally my fwen but...

I started to like you more than a friends,

would u be my next gf..?

i dun know how to say,

but my heart say "i love you n need you"

Im freaking hate you because im started to love you but i dont know if u r mean to me..

I dont know, maybe im the one who feel this way but u are conversely,

Sometimes i feel she likes me too,

but im not sure whether its true,

im not popular guy but i can be your nice guy...

p/s: i can be your MR.CINDERELLA

Sometimes life is unpredictable...just follow with the flow...

Final ExamiNation War...

OH damn....the critical moment is comes again..what the heck...final examination nearly reach and its just around the corner.takot woooo....masa depan kot beb!!!all the assignment plus the task have to be submit immediately...all those thing make my body exhausted and i heard like my spinal had broken.ehe...penat sgt dengan rePort research lagi yang 400 markah,journal ibm yang kena re-do lagi....knock2...

final exam start for the next two weeks..

we currently start to do revision until late night

but the fact is we are not study but keep playing "dota" games..aiseh...berhantu la game neyh..

the 1st paper is marketing research which is difficult to me for understand...

im not ready yet to say hello to research paper..not until im finish do an extraordinary revision...

okie...for this sem,im planning to study hard for all the paper,

not that i kiasu or nerdy,but i need to maintain my cgpa so at least i got something to proud of,

yea, im a little afraid...futhermore IF failed one of the paper...damn..mati la..turun teros cgpa......

i hope tomorrow can bring sunshine to me,may allah enlighten my heart so i can stay focus all

the times,

ya ALLAH...engKAU terangkan lah hatiku ini seperti engkau menerangi bumi ini dengan matahari-MU,permudahkan semua urusan ku,lapangkan lah dadaku agar ak dapat mengingati segala apa yang telah dipelajari, tunjukkan lah jalan yang lurus iaitu jalan yang diredhai mu, dan berikan ak kejayaan di dunia dan akhirat..AMin ya rabbal alamin......

What i can do is back on the track and get my own momentum.....

Oh...Nooooo..IntErship?..

I started to blog again...Writing a blog while my friend present e-commerce to us....bla bla bla...boring stuff..haha...i was blog and started to read about others blog...i read about other post and their excitement to abroad for intership programs...

Somehow,i was like getting excited and i can feel their adrealin while they are writing and sharing their story from their desk...sometimes,i also want to have the same feeling as they are...why why why this thing currently is the significant to us?...huhu..this is the good opportunity to go abroad, i was dreaming to go autralia or maybe london whereby i can enjoy the winter season and autumn leaf season..wah, i dun want to feel this, the excitement, the rush ,spine-chilling unknown...the want-ness of going there..think you know what i mean......



Hope someday i will have the opportunity to go there and i really wish to go as well.....



for now,i focus my energy in finalizing itinerary which is raya preparation and final paper...haha...GAMBATE..chaiyok..!!!!

the 1st step:Travell alonE without past memory..

DAte:28/8/2010



Weather:cloudly


huh(sigh)...Mommy, it about to raining today...so I dun have to go to pasar right..hehe..trying to make an excuses so that i can do a writing thing...So here we go again,i dont know what come through my mind, but the thing is i love to write n write n write.i felt in love with this thing..haha..(poetry)..its a good thing to do....


TOday i writing again for the purpose of sharing my long journey and travell alone without past memory...What the heck..?.kakak pinjam bilik noh,i want to blogging in your room...bole kan...

Everyone have our experience in our life, the good memory will remain with us and the bad thing will be past memory....ya ya ya n ya...this is my entire adventure for my life...lately it keep playing around my mind....shuh shuh shu..go away...this is nightmare and eerie to me...what eja said to me is right "it already more than 2 years...you have to let go this feeling"...thanks Faezah for giving me semangat nak lupakan benda tu...Eja is my Senior in Uitm Kedah..i just knew her but she is very nice person n mostly super duper single right now but also a bit sensitive..haha...Eja, i promote u neyh...hehe...So,the question is how i supposed to forget bout this thing...Eja said "you have to let it go step by step"..huh(sigh again,trying to figure out the meaning behind it)...


Lets face the fact, i am more than pathetic,yeah...pathetic....using this word again n again..flashback to my past life.....tet...error...i cannot write so much fact so it can remain secret to me but what i want to express here is there any happy ending in relationship same as fairy tale...????..we can have good relationship if one of us have the position and money?....i wonder how people will survive without money....i just want to travel alone without "her" in my mind...it comes to my dream,to my mind and sometimes i will felt awkward to have a feeling like this....so this is the 1st step that i should do,share with others bout the story...someTimes i feel that i want to go the top of the mountain and scream for a while so she can go out from my heart...haha(bg ak masa nak jiwang ckit)...n again..shuh shuh shuh shuh shuh.....go away..go away..go away...i can have a good life without you....Grr....i can be success and richer than him in one day n i prove it to "you"...

Jika Aku Jatoh Cinta....

Ya Allah jika aku jatuh cinta Ya Allah,
Cintakanlah aku pada seseorang
Yang melabuhkan cintanya padaMu,
Agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk menyintaiMu

Ya Muhaimin jika aku jatuh hati,Izinkanlah aku menyentuh
Hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut padaMu, Agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta nafsu.
Ya Rabbana jika aku jatuh hati, Jagalah hatiku padanya,
Agar tidak berpaling daripada hatiMu

Ya Rabbul Izzati
Jika ak rindu, rindu kan la aku pada seseorang yang merindui syahid di jalanmu,
Ya Allah jika ak menikmati
cinta kekasihmu, janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan indahnya
malam di sepertiga malam terakhirmu,

Ya allah,
jika ak jatuh hati pada kekasihMu, jangan biarkan ak tertatih dan terjatuh dalam perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia kepadaMu,

Ya Allah,
jika kau halalkan ak merindui kekasihMu,
jangan biarkan ak melampaui batas sehingga melupakan ak pada
cinta hakiki dan rindu abadi kepadaMu..

Ya Allah..Seandainya telah engkau catatkan
Dia milikku tercipta buatku
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami
Agar kemesraan itu abadi
Seandainya engkau takdirkan
Dia bukan milikku
Gantikanlah yang telah hilang
Tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah
Walaupun tidak sama dengan dirinya
Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku
Pasrahkanlah aku dgn takdirmu
Sesungguhnya apa yg telah Engkau takdirkan Adalah yang terbaik buatku

p/s: Benarkah Berdua lebih Baek?...