Saturday, August 28, 2010

Oh...Nooooo..IntErship?..

I started to blog again...Writing a blog while my friend present e-commerce to us....bla bla bla...boring stuff..haha...i was blog and started to read about others blog...i read about other post and their excitement to abroad for intership programs...

Somehow,i was like getting excited and i can feel their adrealin while they are writing and sharing their story from their desk...sometimes,i also want to have the same feeling as they are...why why why this thing currently is the significant to us?...huhu..this is the good opportunity to go abroad, i was dreaming to go autralia or maybe london whereby i can enjoy the winter season and autumn leaf season..wah, i dun want to feel this, the excitement, the rush ,spine-chilling unknown...the want-ness of going there..think you know what i mean......



Hope someday i will have the opportunity to go there and i really wish to go as well.....



for now,i focus my energy in finalizing itinerary which is raya preparation and final paper...haha...GAMBATE..chaiyok..!!!!

the 1st step:Travell alonE without past memory..

DAte:28/8/2010



Weather:cloudly


huh(sigh)...Mommy, it about to raining today...so I dun have to go to pasar right..hehe..trying to make an excuses so that i can do a writing thing...So here we go again,i dont know what come through my mind, but the thing is i love to write n write n write.i felt in love with this thing..haha..(poetry)..its a good thing to do....


TOday i writing again for the purpose of sharing my long journey and travell alone without past memory...What the heck..?.kakak pinjam bilik noh,i want to blogging in your room...bole kan...

Everyone have our experience in our life, the good memory will remain with us and the bad thing will be past memory....ya ya ya n ya...this is my entire adventure for my life...lately it keep playing around my mind....shuh shuh shu..go away...this is nightmare and eerie to me...what eja said to me is right "it already more than 2 years...you have to let go this feeling"...thanks Faezah for giving me semangat nak lupakan benda tu...Eja is my Senior in Uitm Kedah..i just knew her but she is very nice person n mostly super duper single right now but also a bit sensitive..haha...Eja, i promote u neyh...hehe...So,the question is how i supposed to forget bout this thing...Eja said "you have to let it go step by step"..huh(sigh again,trying to figure out the meaning behind it)...


Lets face the fact, i am more than pathetic,yeah...pathetic....using this word again n again..flashback to my past life.....tet...error...i cannot write so much fact so it can remain secret to me but what i want to express here is there any happy ending in relationship same as fairy tale...????..we can have good relationship if one of us have the position and money?....i wonder how people will survive without money....i just want to travel alone without "her" in my mind...it comes to my dream,to my mind and sometimes i will felt awkward to have a feeling like this....so this is the 1st step that i should do,share with others bout the story...someTimes i feel that i want to go the top of the mountain and scream for a while so she can go out from my heart...haha(bg ak masa nak jiwang ckit)...n again..shuh shuh shuh shuh shuh.....go away..go away..go away...i can have a good life without you....Grr....i can be success and richer than him in one day n i prove it to "you"...